I deleted an account on a certain website that is no longer serving my life. It’s from my past. Where I met TOXIC people to get high with. And at that site, I met abusive soulless people too. It helped destroy my life. I hadn’t logged onto it in a long time. I did tonight to delete it. I saw it was the exact same. If not worse. Goodbye to that toxic chat room environment where only the desperate and hateful people exist. I feel so much better erasing that account.
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Good for you!! Delete all that junk that no longer serves you. You have a choice to not be that person anymore. I lived a double life for many years. I was a clean cut professional family man on the outside, and a freaking sick madman on the inside. The internet (websites, chat rooms, apps etc) opened up an underground playground for me where I found an escape from a reality that I could no longer emotionally handle. It sucked me in deeper and deeper. The day I got clean and sober (653 days ago) I deleted it all. I don’t even go on social media anymore. Once in a while something pops up as a reminder to my insane past, but I don’t engage because I know I’m powerless over certain things once I start feeding the monster. Sometimes I get bored and curious, but again I don’t engage because today I have a daily program and it keeps me mindful of my recovery. It’s tempting to go find that validation that our souls crave, but we need to fill that void by learning to love ourselves for exactly the way we are.
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I honestly miss stuff like Facebook sometimes but I got off there in 2018 because I felt like it was the only way people were in my life and I got sick of online only friendships with people who knew me in real life. I’m noticing a lot of people in recovery use it in NA for meeting related stuff but I don’t want to get back on it yet. Everything you said is almost a mirror of how I used the internet for years. Another side of myself, etc. Thank you for your comment.
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Good for you 
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You go, girl !!! 
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