I think you’re beautiful God bless. I feel the same way. I hate pictures of myself I have like 2 total on my phone. I avoid facebook, people give me compliments I don’t think so I know the feeling I’ll pray for you
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Hey … I’m in rehab and I have the same things as you. Connect if you can and I’ll respond when I can 
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Sending prayers!!!
Hang in there. It’s worth it.
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I just wrote a similar thing to Janelle. Alcohol took my creativity away. Now I pour myself into my music. Love yourself, you're worth it. Believe in yourself, you can do it!
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You are never alone there are so many people feeling the same way you do. Just remember how good you felt being sober. You can reclaim your life back it’s never, ever, ever too late. Look in the mirror and say positive affirmations constantly, be aware of your negative thoughts catch them when they come and change them.
You can do this!!!
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Reset. And try again! As long as there is life, there’s HOPE!
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Calene is so right! Everyone here is your support system and you can be you again.
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You are worth loving. Sober and beautiful. In time you will see what I see. You are an amazing woman. Hugs
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It will come , give yourself some grace for those 9months 
I relapsed too on my first try and i learned so much about myself and what made me relapse
( full blown relapse too )
You did not loose anything from your sober time . Its a matter of perspective but the key for me was enjoying the small wins that came my way .
You are worth it just like i am worth it 
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I have to agree that you are quite beautiful. Not loving ourselves is a huge part of this disease. The big book tells us to help the fellow addict in times like these. 1st, it helps us to get outside of ourselves. 2nd we often tend to see our value in the lives of others. By helping someone else you will indeed be helping yourself. I honestly cannot think of a time that this is not worked for me in the last 2 years. You will get your sober days back on track. First you need to love YOU better. One does not come without the other. Thanks for sharing Luna. For being vulnerable. I believe in you!
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Always love yourself. You are unique and amazing. Believe in yourself sending love
You should at least workout with you tube videos. There’s really good free training on there. If you don’t have weights there’s body weight exercises… it will help your mood. I’d check out the audiobook “the power of one more” by Ed Mylett also. You can get past the limiting beliefs it just takes staying on top of them and quit letting them run your life
I have felt so fat for the last year and a half i am just now seeing that im not bad im average also i do lots of art and didn’t start to have any creativity until Christmas it’s coming back slowly
Sending love 
There’s nothing bad about methane and stay right, the rest will follow!
Your beautiful
Your are shining light darlin! We got your back find a meeting find a beautiful spot to go for a walk! Visit and art gallery to find those who share your love of art. Message if ever need an ear I’ve been where you are and we can find the light !
One thing I learned is the things you have to change.. people places and things.. you have to stay away from the people you use to run with or people you drank/used with and the people who caused you to use and drink.. the places you did them at like bars etc.. and you have to get rid of the drug paraphernalia etc.. start a life one day at a time.. at an AA group or church.. it’s easier to get thru each day if you have a sponsor or just other people that’s going thru the same things and feelings you’re going through.. and pray.. ask God to help you.. Ge knows how you’re feeling.. He will get you through it.. just take one day at a time until you can do it on your own.. put God first and everything else will fall in place
I’m feel same way many day and it a mind thing I know it sucks but have to push mind in ways never thought make ur self go for drive back road clear your mind look at nature it will help try do every day