I don’t want to drink. But I’m hurting so bad. I am so lonely. I can’t stop crying. I don’t know what to do
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Why. I really mean for you to say what is wrong. Sometimes putting it into words helps by itself and maybe some else can give you healthy thoughts and ideas to help
My home group has a 24hr in person meeting tonight. I’m bringing so food and hanging out to help myself and others. There might be one in your area. Know that you are loved and I’ll be sending good thoughts your way. Hang in there.
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My life has spiraled down for years. In 2001 I moved to help my parents. Dad had had a heart attack and couldn’t work. I moved in to help pay bills and left my children grandchildren and the most awesome AA community and support. I had friends and was in a relationship and basically I disappeared. I haven’t had contact with my AA family since. I haven’t found that support here. That’s my fault. I’m an introvert and it’s so hard to reach out. After I moved I made friends and was in some romantic relationships. My dad died in 2013 which was devastating. I have had difficulty keeping a job i was happy in but have lost several. After a while I started believing it was something wrong with me. But Louisiana is an at will state and my supervisors have been men. I’m employed now for an agency that makes me miserable. Have been for five years. I need to find something else but need to write an updated resume and I can’t. I’m stuck and feel overwhelmed. I am a licensed mental health social worker but don’t feel very therapeutic. After my dad became ill I moved back in to help when he was in hospice. I’ve stayed to help my mom. She now has Alzheimer’s. COVID has caused things to be more difficult but I am alone bi have no friends-that’s a whole other conversation. I don’t understand why those friendships ended. I have no significant other. I long for human contact-hugs. My family is distant. I blame myself. I’ve also isolated from them as I go through my pain. Be I have mental health issues. Mostly depression and anxiety. But have problems nurturing relationships even with my children and grandkids. I love them but I feel locked away. I’ve tried therapy without success. It’s difficult finding someone I don’t know working in the mental health field. I just want to give up
Thank you for your thoughts. I haven’t gone to a meeting since covid. Mom and I are completely vaccinated but I worry about still bringing it home to her. She’s 85
Hi Diane, it seems like you need to get plugged back into community! I understand the fear of bringing Covid home to your mom, have you explored online AA meetings? You can start to develop community that way and then maybe eventually meet people individually once you have developed a relationship with them. Trust and openness take time, but it’s important to take advantage of the tools before us. There’s a really great AA zoom meeting at 12:30est everyday:
ID: 628 231 1528
Password: 1234
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Thank you. You are right. I’m in Louisiana so is that 11:30 central?
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Yes, I believe that should be 11:30 am your time.
Will try maybe Sunday
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Get the support program and the people that are involved. They need you as much as you need them. Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas to all of you or happy holidays to those who don’t celebrate
Diane,,, I want to reach through the phone and give you a BIG hug !!! Definitely start an online meeting… my dad has dementia and I too moved in to help my mom with him .. it’s a depressing environment in itself !!
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Thank you. Hugz to you as well
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Give your life to Jesus. That is the only thing that has worked for me. Prayers sent for healing
Merry Christmas Diane! Sorry to hear of your struggles. I’m so glad you reached out to us. This is definitely a sign that you’ve hit bottom and are ready for change. Like others have said, you need to get connected again. Isolation is horribly depressing and crippling. You had a previous connection before, and you can get it back. AA meetings is the best place for that. I recommend some women’s meetings, and staying out of romantic relationships for a bit. You can do this!
Hi Diane. I am also in a mental health profession and I do not feel very therapeutic at the moment either. I empathize with everything you described.
Thank you. It’s so hard. I especially as I feel I need to find someone to work with for my own mental health. What I’m doing now is not working
Soberinsoflo. You are right. I have over 33 years sober but I have hit bottom. You know what is really sad. I wish without losing my years I could go back and be a newbie. To be welcomed and supported and have a wonderful group of people who carried me to sobriety and became my family. I miss them and that feeling so much
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Deep breathes. Get to an online meeting ASAP!
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