I know i want to get sober at least i feel.being w/someone who has no idea what im going through! Anger and resent is growing!
Get sober for yourself!! It’s worth it!
I know I want to, I’m an emotional user and having someone who doesn’t understand what I am going through mentally or physically is exhausting and frustrating and triggers me!
Is there a reason you keep them in your circle as you try and heal?
Normies never understand that’s why we have meetings
Love,fear,security I guess
Honestly the exact reason I joined
They usually don’t think there is a problem
You’ll work through all of that… don’t let energy go to things you can’t control and push for more sobriety… then you’ll get clarity

Could it be that you actually do know what you want but just don’t want the consequences?
It’s not the consequences I’m avoiding, I have gotten clean before. It’s the fear and not wanting to loose that feeling I get when I get high. This time around is harder to let go of. For a couple reasons! I’m pretty sure I know them
I see. I think I understand now. Thank you.
It’s good that you’re honest with yourself.
My wife the normy. We just celebrated 21 years together. February we had 14 years married. She doesnt get me on basicly any level. Why i think, do, act the ways we do. I told her when I started im doing this for me. I accepted God, then AA, then her, then the kids, then everyone else. We have issues and hard times. Do it for you. Life will always life.
Why does it matter that the other person has to understand? In my life I know that there are people who love me, hate me, and despise me. I only care about the people who love me. People don't have to understand me. I just need to keep my side clean.