I know i want to get sober at least i feel.being w/someone who has no idea what im going through! Anger and resent is growing!
Get sober for yourself!! It’s worth it!
I know I want to, I’m an emotional user and having someone who doesn’t understand what I am going through mentally or physically is exhausting and frustrating and triggers me!
Is there a reason you keep them in your circle as you try and heal?
Normies never understand that’s why we have meetings
Love,fear,security I guess
Honestly the exact reason I joined
They usually don’t think there is a problem
You’ll work through all of that… don’t let energy go to things you can’t control and push for more sobriety… then you’ll get clarity

Could it be that you actually do know what you want but just don’t want the consequences?
It’s not the consequences I’m avoiding, I have gotten clean before. It’s the fear and not wanting to loose that feeling I get when I get high. This time around is harder to let go of. For a couple reasons! I’m pretty sure I know them