I dont see a light at the end of this

Recovery
#1

I dont see a light at the end of this tunnel and it’s sad but right now I am content

#2

I think the worst part is wanting to commit suicide but knowing you don’t really want to die. Knowing you want to live and be great. But being stuck in a cycle of sickness; F this story and F this perpetual cycle. Im just..idek how to F’ing feel. Im stuck and I probably won’t get out. Im becoming more and more okay with dying to this bc idfc anymore. Every time I fail I feel so week and I’ve been given so many words of encouragement and im still just fucked up in this spot again, like so many other times. I tell myself “you deserve a break” and then five head first back into the madness. F. There is really little hope for me. Idk how my dad did it but im not as strong as him. He got sober for me and stayed sober for me and now look at me😂 what a fing tragedy

#3

Let’s start with some deep breathes. We tend to get a bit ahead of ourselves. Let’s just slow the roll get a plan for the day get and stay connected it’s just for today my friend. Always HP near :pray:

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#4

Thank you so much, In such a powerless state, I appreciate your words

#5

Early sobriety sucks. It’s hard, just getting off the booze took me almost five months the second thru tenth times. Ask for help too. Keep coming too, it really does get better. Have faith :pray:

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