I drunkenly posted here last night. I went an entire week with no alcohol, found a bottle I had stashed and drank the entire thing in one sitting. I embarrassed and humiliated myself. I'm trying not to apologize to my boyfriend over and over again. I'm beyond depressed.
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I'm so sorry. I relapsed terribly in September. Still fighting and repairing the damage.
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The only thing that matters is that you know your recognized your mistake. We are glad you are here to share your story.
You’re not alone.
Learn from your past and grow where you can.
Today is a new day and you don’t have to drink today.
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What Andrew said.
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Don’t beat yourself up.
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We’ve all been there. I’m glad you reached out to us. Sending love. Message me if you need !
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Been there more than once. I can appreciate your honesty… proves your headed in the right direction.. UP
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Now you know about temptation
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Think it through next time
The pain of getting sober
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Go to a meeting get a coin for remembrance
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Finally. Some truth. You will have some mishaps. I had the same thing happen to me a few years ago and I took a picture of the bottle and slammed it. Got me clean. If you want it bad enough and work on yourself, life will become epically fantastic.
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Great advice!
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We relapse because we keep believing the lie; that this time, everything will be okay. But it never is, is it?
Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one. They are
restless, irritable and discontented
unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks—drinks which they see others taking with impunity. After they have succumbed to the desire again, as so many do, and the
phenomenon of craving
develops, they pass through the well-known stages of a spree, emerging remorseful, with a firm resolution not to drink again. This is repeated over and over, and unless this person can experience an
entire psychic change
there is very little hope of his or her recovery.”
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Pick yourself up! Start again. It ok
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You’ve got this. Trust me. We’ve all been there. One day at a time. One step at a time.
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Also, maybe to lighten the mood? This is one of the better options for a place to drunkenly post. We all understand what you’re going through atleast. Better than drunk texting an ex (which I’ve done a million times over).
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Kelli
Next time play the scene forward. You may feel some relief but it is very short-lived. When you wake up you'll have to carry around more shame just like you're doing right now and have to start all over knowing that you accomplished absolutely nothing.
I want you to think about everything that you're feeling right now should an opportunity to drink again present itself.
You should have some phone numbers where you could call somebody everyday. Preferably somebody that has some serious sober time under their belt.
The worst thing you can do is try to go at this alone. This app and the people on it can give you some support but nothing beats authentic human interaction.
Relapse is part of recovery. Stay strong, your amazing.
Exactly!
AA and meetings saved my life.
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