I have no place of comfort in my mind to escape to because every good memory is riddled with pain or loss in it. I have no comforts outside of myself either. They were all taken from me. The comforts i seek from what IS there, i cant FEEL anything from. Its like I am drained of love and comfort all of the time. When i tap into it again, words, thoughts or memories pop into my mind telling me it wont work out or that I miss what I used to have and now its gone and even what i get in the future that might be bring me comfort and joy will be gone too and put me in an even worse state of mind and position in my life. I am in so much emotional pain. It is excruciating.
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Stay strong, you’re not alone
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Be patient, it will all be better
I understand I lost my neice that was born on my 10th birthday to endometriosis and then her mother my oldest sister passed 8 months later last year was hard me and my other sister are trying to raise her 10 year old son I been clean trying to find something to do with myself every time I fall for a woman i get heartbroken and left feeling stressed and stupid hold your head up girl your not alone u can go this
Sam, you’re loved unconditionally❤️. I’ve felt similar to your current description. Not to offend, but I realized my ego was the demon causing my pain.
Once I realized my truth, I was able to love others including myself unconditionally. That’s all I ever really wanted. Being loved is fine but not necessary. Then my drug & alcohol addiction was easily overcome.
I’m here if you want to talk.
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