I feel I’m at a weird point where I want to relapse sometimes but I know I can’t. And I’m afraid if the desire outweighs the knowledge that it would result in mostly me prob having a bad high because of guilt/low tolerance/feeling I lost somehow and then the risk of going into a full relapse and continuing to get high in days following. It’s hard to explain but I feel it’s changed from sometimes wanting to relapse and part of my brain telling me it won’t be a huge deal/you can balance it/it wont unravel all the work you have done. Tomorrow will be 5 months clean and sober but for some reason tonight I feel vulnerable to a slip up coming and I’m not sure why
Stuff tends to come up for me the week leading up to or the day before a milestone. I’ve come to find this as normal and as a strengthening moment. You got this. Go get that chip tomorrow 
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I just got drunk. I cannot deal with my inability to handle disappointment. My father died 1/31/24. My husband is abusive. My job which I love with all my heart angers my husband cuz I don’t make enough money. Please don’t drink cuz now I’m sad and hate myself.
I’m sorry for your loss. Alcohol isn’t really my issue it’s more psychedelics and other drugs. I am not sure why I want to relapse I think I just miss feeling really good instantly
Yes but that is short lived. Better to be sober. Please don’t use. I root for you and anyone struggling.
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