I feel like it’s continually falling apart. Even in sobriety. I fight throwing a pity party, I say the Serenity Prayer constantly to stay sane and as stable as possible, but I don’t think it matters
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It’s does always matter! One day at a time! 
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Get to meetings and go to as many as possible. Reach out to fellows. Do not rely on prayer or any other super natural nonsense. Your fellows will take care of you. Reach out to them, in real life. Go have some awful coffee..
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Well maybe you try something different and different program or group. Sometimes the prayer doesn't work so maybe try something else. Break things down maybe when you are throwing a fit write it down and then break it down to what we're the causes or issues then work on one by one. You will get focused on that and work through things and not be relying on prayer to do magic. Find the causes, address, work it out and fix!
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Stay sane. Remember. We're all brothas n sistas of the same pain. It gets better bro.
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Me too. I can say.. early in sobriety, I remember feeling so free. This reminds me how important it is to stay sober. I can find solutions to problems only by staying sober. Lately, I feel there's little I can do, but I know better. Things have me down.. In ways I never imagined possible. Even so, my situation is 1000x worse when using. I only have to stay sober today. If that's all I can focus on right now, that's good enough. Sometimes, the best we can do is good enough. 
This is a hard thing to do man. Sobriety, life, balance. All of it. But if you can just do one of those things okay each day it makes the other two easier to accomplish the next day.