I feel like no one cares. I hate to sound depressing but I honestly feel that way nowadays.
I totally understand what you're going through. I was a meth user from the age of 21 to 45 and that's how old I am right now. Now that I'm sober, I don't talk to anybody. Not even the sober people that I used to know. They all have given me so many chances to clean up my act and they just keep seeing me screw up people have told me to go to NA or AA meetings & I've decided that it was not for me. I don't need to go to a meeting to stay sober. I really don't need anything. And quite honestly for me, I worked all 12 steps once and I will never do it again because the sponsor expects way way too much out of me I know that it's his job to push me to continue to move forward in the process, but I need somebody who is going to be understanding of my personal situation. So anyway, I would just say this, if you really truly honestly want to stay sober, do what I did and go to meetings online. I mean they have different cities where they conduct meetings via zoom and you don't even have to leave your house. If you ever feel like you know you really need somebody to talk to you're more than welcome to call me. I'll I can't even talk to my cell phone number. Just let me know.
My story is kinda similar to yours. I’ve been sober for 17 years. I moved from the state where I got sober and where my home group was. And my friends I got sober with. I did have a lot of people challenges in my home group there and it put a damper on how I saw people in recovery to keep it short. In the new state I tried going to meetings for a while but I wasn’t making any friends. A lot of it was that I was listening to my own thoughts which isn’t good. Well I’ve isolated and now I’m stuck. lol. Thing is I’m not around people in the program. I’m dealing with everyday “normal”folks. And most of them don’t care. Sorry about what you’re going through but I would definitely give the program another chance.
Its not that they don’t “care”, its more of that they don’t understand. People as you know who are normies don’t get the big deal of having to practice abstinence from alcohol or drugs for those who struggle with that addiction too! You’re here so you can at least cyberly be with people who “get” you.
Y'all I can totally relate..I'm a 10 year meth addict....caught a charge did a few months in county, got out stayed clean a few months failed a ua...did a few more months in county and God showed me the path that I was on and I realized I wanted to change my life..I am like 10 1/2 months sober but I still have to see meth every day of my life...everyone I love does it..my family..my boyfriend..all the friends that I've had for 10 years...and now I just kinda feel like I'm invisible...and Like nobody cares...like I don't fit into their life anymore...and I feel like being around the lifestyle makes me feel like sobriety didn't really make any positive changes for me outside of growing closer to God.....
I just had a moment....growing closer to God is all I need in this life.....I'm not supposed to long for worldy acceptance or validation....I have successfully grown closer to God and should continue to seek His peace and His path for my life....
I just wish I knew the path to get me there .....
I hope at some point you are able to get away from those that are using in your life before you fall victim to it again. Of course you don’t fit in because you’re trying to change. Going to NA meetings you will definitely fit in for the fact that you will now be around people that are trying to stay stopped and change their life. I cut off all my old friends years ago so I could change. And I don’t worry about what they think about it.
Be the change that you want to see in the world
What I tell myself when I feel that way is that if you feel like no one cares just stop paying your bills and your phone will never stop ringing until it does.
We care, I care.... keep going
Man it sucks what you're going through. Being forced to leave the people that you're used to being around. Believe me when I say, I know exactly how you feel. I have a very difficult time allowing myself to trust a person and I just don't trust anybody right now.
I used to think no one cared either, but recovery showed me I was wrong. You speaking up proves you’re stronger than you feel rn.