I feel so weak I was so close to a month and the day before I blew it I just couldn’t handle it and nothing was helping
Dust yourself off and start over. Today is a new day. Find a meeting to go to and a sponsor. You can do this!
Shaming yourself won’t work, Kyler. Why would you feel weak when you are fighting against something that inherently is addictive? It’s okay. Find a meeting and go. Whether it’s AA/NA, SMART Recovery. Online or in person. The past is past. You’ve already took one good step forward by being here. Give yourself some credit.
Welcome back