You’re not alone 
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Hi Ana. We alcoholics have what is called an allergy to alcohol. An abnormal reaction. It sparks a phenomenon of craving. Once we start we cannot stop. No telling how much we will drink and no matter how bad we want to stop, we cannot. The solution is out there. But we have to be honest, open minded and willing. You’re not alone. From my experience starting out, I needed a medical detox and then was introduced to the program of recovery.
Positive vibes your way. 
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Your not alone. Your never alone. You just have to reach out
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Awareness is the first step to solving a problem. Sounds like you have an alcohol use disorder which is a spectrum and includes many including a lot of current drinkers. Once you get over the shock of being slightly different realize there are a lot of people like you living better lives than they did before because alcohol is not necessary to be social and have fun. You will be okay. You are here.
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You’re not like everyone else. For you drinking = chaos (your words). You are like everyone here. The recovery community will happily pick you up.
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Go to a meeting
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Stop and be grateful for another day . Everyday above ground is a great day your going to be ok .
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I understand. It’s so frustrating that we can’t be “normal “. I feel angry about it too. I’m back myself and now on day 2 again so I get how you feel.
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Today I have found new friends in recovery. I went to NA meetings and started to identify with the feelings of others. It works!
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i am 
thank you
thank you for this!!! i’m glad to know i’m not alone!
appreciate you 
thank you for the information. i am excited to be alcohol free and feel strong and clear minded again! x
this is very kind. thank you! x
needed this, thank you! x
we got this!!
looking forward to it! x
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Give yourself as much love and grace as you can muster, for starters. I used to think if I beat myself up enough and punish myself mentally, I would do better. But now I think it’s the reverse. For me it has to start with self-compassion.
Well, this is Day 40 after 9 mos. relapse..it’s ok..don’t beat yourself with guilt and shame..I had many 1 days, 2 days, 3 days, 2 days, 10 days..it’s hard. I really wanted the 30 day chip. I was willing to do anything. My son is aware of progress and is proud. I’d ruin my chip..I would hate myself. You’ll start over..it’s ‘just don’t drink for one day of 24 hours’..that’s all. I don’t preach AA. I’m responsible to my doctors and therapist if I drink again. I am wishing you the best. Oh but I experienced craving pretty much for first time. I can see the whole routine of buying it and getting it home. And carrying on..by myself. Not cool.
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