I find night time to be the worst. Im over the temptations I can’t sleep, feel very alone which I can’t stand being alone . I thought once I got through the withdrawals I was good but I was wrong. I’m having a hard time with a lot of things , motivation, drive, the drug I was on really messes with the brain
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What drug were you on? If you don’t mind me asking, I’m sorry i hope that it’s gotten better since this post!
I had a hard time sleeping, being mad at myself and wishing things were different kept me up at night too. Don’t beat yourself up about being addicted to an addictive drug. Our brains and bodies heal w time. Your body will adjust. Create some new habits and get involved w a recovery group. I use the Calm app sleep stories at night to help. Also breathing exercises and meditation. You can do it. Find some healing habits and keep trying!
Fentanyl sniffing it , had a high tolerance $200 a day for 2.5 - 3 months then started coming down till I was doing one a day . As I was coming down I did micro dosing of subutex has no blocker but if I took to much I would put myself in precipitated withdrawals which are worse then withdrawals from just dope or fent. I used for 6.5 months. Someone introduced me to a research chemical called isotonitazene it’s 1,000 times more stronger then morphine. It mimics a drug that is not used in humans only animals ,called etonitazene when I was offered it I said never heard of it he told me it’s like a painkiller feeling mixed with shrooms so I tried it then bought some after a few days I’m hooked. He said it wasn’t like dope not addictive so I believed it but no I didn’t believe it just told myself that so I wouldn’t feel like I was doing something I shouldn’t be. It’s the worst drug I have done the hardest to kick it takes over you it kills people