I found some drugs when was cleaning and with out even thinking for some stupid reason I did it it was a very tiny bit but now I regret it and feel horrible my self esteem is shot and my energy levels have dipped what should I do next
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Hi Iance,
What's done is done.
What to do now? Accept what I've done and move on from it.
Reflect and journal.
Learn your triggers.
Most of all forgive yourself, please.
Get a spiritual program.
Use this experience to propel yourself forward.
All the best to you.
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Thank you
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You are welcome.
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The process of recovery or recovering is a process. Many edges, twists and turns. All is part of the journey. 
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Many of us have had relapses while trying to quit. I get back up, try again and keep going. We are stronger then we think we are!
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Definitely forgive yourself! Punishing yourself will only make you want to use 100x worse. It’s okay. We screw up! And then we pick ourselves up and try again.
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Hey lance,
My first thought was fuck. I feel you 100%. I’m in recovery too and my first four months were filled with days like this. When I had gone back to my house I had zip lock bags of pills stashed in random places. I had a baggy with crystal meth that busted in a handbag. It was insane. Completely understand what you’re going through. The thing is when we’re addicts we are good at giving in to outselfs no matter what the cost. Therefore my question for you is- did you honestly think there was nothing there to find or did you set yourself up? Cause on different occasions when I was fully triggered, i found myself trying to manipulate myself into going back home or to my storage place in hopes of finding a pill or something-ANYTHING. But I shared about it and told on myself because I truly believe that I need to stay clean. I just don’t trust myself like at all yet so I won’t let myself go anywhere alone still cause I was BAD & even the smallest amount will take me out.
Im sorry you’re going through this but stay strong.
• call a sober friend who will hold you accountable/ a sponsor
• tell on yourself
• flush the drugs and don’t give yourself time to think
…As far as now...
• be kind to yourself. It’s okay to start over but START STRONGER
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Keep moving forward, dude.
You were given a test and now you know you’ve got work to do.
Put that shit in the past and fight for the next inch.
Let’s win today and then we’ll win tomorrow.
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