it's amazing how I get so much more done and I'm not afraid when I was coming off of a hangover is the only reason why I drank every single day back in the day and you can't be hungover if you don't stop drinking and so that's why you keep drinking or that's why I kept drinking and again back in the day and I remember asking along time sober person. why do people fall off the wagon and it's because they forgot where they came from and they think it's going to be different and it's always worse and every time I've gone back to drinking it's 10 times worse not initially but it always creeps back into mayhem and sadness and that's why you don't hang out with people cuz you don't want them to see in your best friend is a bottle and then you get so sick. I mean I would get so sick. I was just stop for a week or two and by then I'd be hungry for it again. you can only fake it for so long and your body can only take it for so long and why I'm still alive is why I'm grateful I done run out of chances. forgive my grammar and lack thereof
and the other selfish part of me is because I am now so productive. I won't spend time on this app because I'm still selfish and I don't have time because I'm so far behind and I'm just grateful and I don't know how to navigate around it. and I'm so sorry if I've ever offended anyone on this app. I've only been on it a couple days and I'm in so much behind in every way and I just want to thank everybody and apologize in advance if I don't respond because I only check in and even though I'm very sober for a long time, I'm still a dry drunk and I'm working on it. the journey never ends and I'm so grateful for everyone. please take care and be safe and think about the 24 hours of drinking and what happens or the 24 hours of using and I'm talking to myself and if it is interested at all just picture 24 hours okay now I'm getting redundant and lecturing and I don't do that except for just now repetitive redundant shut up Susan. thank you! have a great day
and I never talked in the third person and that terrifies me. I have to go be around real people. I called them normies as I think all of us former and current AA FOLKS DO NORMIES DON'T GET IT AND I DON'T LIKE BEING TALKED DOWN TOO AND I DON'T LIKE BEING TREATED SPECIAL AND I'M STILL SAYING I TOO MUCH PEACE OUT I THINK THAT'S AN OLD PHRASE BUT I DON'T CARE I'M JUST TRYING TO MAKE IT THROUGH ONE MORE DAY One more second because I am picturing what will happen from that first drink in 24 hours later? and I don't want to go down that sewage hole again. SO GRATEFUL 4 LOOSID AND ALL OF OUR FREQUENCIES
That's all. be careful and super safe and maybe go a little bit slower so we can remember where we put stuff and I never know where anything is. I'm working on that and I'm still talking and I'm still saying I need to shut the FUDGE up later. Gators