I got to 25 days and i fked it up. I don’t know why i did it. I guess the urge was just so strong and there was this feeling of anxiety and panic if i couldn’t drink that night. At first i couldn’t find my id, then i found it. Then i couldn’t find my debit card and remembered i had given it to somebody. But i just used another card, no amount of karmic signs could stop me that night. Now i feel stupid and ashamed. I had so many numbers i could have reached out to but i didn’t. Learning curve.
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Unfortunately relapses happen , learn from it and move on , u can do it 
Do stuff different next time you're feeling funky. Get up, dust yourself up, and try again. Don't wallow in the guilt too long!
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Consider it research like it talks about in the big book. Researching whether or not your an alcoholic.
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Been there, done that.
Forgive yourself and start over.
It happens. Talking about it helps.
If you don't have one you might find a sponsor. I used to hate the idea of a sponsor, I didn't get it, I don't like "rules" but it's not like that. It's about talking to an experienced sober person every day to build a relationship and get help. I'd be nowhere without my sponsor.
Not many people are 1 chip wonders. It doesn’t matter how many times you mess up! Just recommit to your sobriety and start again. Every single relapse Ive learned something about myself. I started following lots of sober Instagram pages and reading sobriety literature and it really helps.
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