I had 29 days and I was going to get my chip for my 30 days and I drink what the heck is wrong with me
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Nothings wrong with you. It’s all a process. I’ve been trying for 4 years to stop. I would stop drinking for a bit and then go back on a bender. But each break got longer and longer. I might drink tomorrow. Who knows. Day to day. It’s all a process.
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Your not alone. What I realized is I have an allergy to alcohol, a mental obsession and spiritual malady. Once I admitted that I had all three of these things my recovery was underway. AA has helped me see what is wrong with me. When I say wrong I’m talking about the difference between a normal drinker, heavy drinker and me the real Alcoholic. We did nothing wrong, we are just born this way. Alcohol in my body has an allergic reaction which then causes a phenomenon of craving which then leads to the mental obsession which then cause a spiritual block and I began to shut down, shutout everything and everyone that loves me. It’s a disease of loneliness.
I will pray for your healing, your strength and courage to get back up, find a meeting, get a sponsor and read the AA big book.
It’s changed my life for the better. Not easier, better.
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Because you want to. I’m reading this book about getting rid of the desire. Very interesting. It’s Allen Carr’s Quit Drinking. Give it a shot 
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Thank you guys you’ve been so sweet. Just give me a call if you want to 318-455-8833 thanks guys y’all have been so sweet to help me get through all of this
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Because you’re an alcoholic. I’ve done it so many times…it’s ok. You fell down, just make sure you get back up! We are all hear for you!
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Thank you
Oh my God upfront and in my face that is so true
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I would really like to hear more about that because I’ve been struggling for years and you just have it on points. 318-455-8833 and I’m serious about this is not a relationship or anything to do with that I’m not into that right now so just letting you know
Yes and allergy I absolutely know I have an hour tree
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The minute I get to that point a sabotage it can any of you understand that sabotage thing because I don’t understand it I don’t know what that is about and I hate it because it is like totally fucked in my world
Thank you I absolutely will do your device
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I want to thank all you guys for putting your opinions and I appreciate it so much it’s been a battle for years I don’t get it? The minute I am like on my path and doing good then I just sabotage it. I’m beginning to think that I might be unsalvageable. Like they talk about that in the AA program somebody that just doesn’t get it they never can get it and they are not at fault but they just can’t get it I think that’s me
No that’s me being crazy don’t call me
What’s wrong with you? Your human! We are alcoholics and addicts. This is normal we crave some mess up we all did at one point. Don’t kill your self over it! !Put the drink down and keep on moving forward. You’ll get there! It takes practice you will be a pro in no time. And all chips you want.
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Self sabotage is a huge part of my story / behaviors I used to exhibit in active drinking and when I was just “dry.” That’s why the “spiritual” part of the program is so important to practice. I couldn’t stand AA when I first got exposed to it, but it’s the only thing I’ve seen consistently work for recovering alcoholics.
That makes so much sense to me
The spiritual side of the program I guess it don’t get? Can you tell me more about that
I don’t get that spiritual side I don’t understand it and there’s no sense to me please tell me what that’s about
Yeah I kind of get that aspect of it it’s like a muscle you just continue to do it and your muscle just continues to do it and he stop drinking for one day and it’s like a muscle and then the next day you don’t drink the next day and it’s like a muscle and then you just continue to not drink the next day it’s like a muscle? Am I crazy does this make sense if you buddy with me