I had 4 days and I blew it again last

Recovery
#1

I had 4 days and I blew it again last night, I’m starting smart recovery tomorrow night and I’m going to check in every night to confirm I’m still sober.
I am at my wits end and I have to get off this merry go round.

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#2

This may be a dumb question. But what’s smart recovery?

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#3

It’s a program of self help that you can do in person or on Zoom meetings. Google it. I have been to one meeting and I am going to continue.
They work with addiction issues and some other things.

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#5

Why did you drink Doug?
I've never heard of anyone who went back out and came back that said things got better. Only worse.

It's called believing the LIE;
That this time, everything will be OK. But it never is, is it?

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#7

It doesn’t matter how many times you fall , it only matters how many times you get back up. We all make mistakes every single day, don’t dwell on them learn from them….

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#8

I drank for a really stupid reason… which they all are. But I went on a date and she was drinking… This is another area I need to learn to navigate… dating…

#9

If you'll allow me to make a suggestion, do you think you can leave women alone until you have one year sober?

That was what my sponsor asked me in 2003. I didn't understand it at the time but I really had nothing to offer the opposite s-x. I couldn't stay sober and could hardly take care of myself much less anyone else.

Staying away from people who drink and places that serve alcohol in the beginning is a smart idea too as you just learned.

Remember that we deal with alcohol. Cunning, baffling and powerful.

Keeping to myself for several years showed me that I was co-dependant. At age 42 i had never lived on my own before, paying my own bills.
I was a drunk from the start. Driving trucks gave me a place to sleep every night.

I have a long list of good things living alone taught me. I finally met the woman of my dreams in 2015. We were married 2019. I had to bring her here from the Philippines.

Today, I have nothing to cry about. I did relapse in 2011. Cost me 3 yrs. I too had once believed the lie. It was a big lesson for me. I now have over 8 yrs.

You can too if you take a break. First Things First.
Don't drink. One day at a time. And go to meetings.

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