I had 9 months clean from suboxin, and slipped up

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I had 9 months clean from suboxin, and slipped up last week and did it for a week straight, i feel so disgusted with my self, and the withdraws came back pretty quick, i cant believe this, i told my self i would never put my self and my body back through that pain again and hear i am, im hoping this time the withdraws may not last as long?

When i do it i snort it and never have took it by mouth like youre suppose too, today marks day 1 with nothing and i can already feel the phatom pain in my back, dont feel happy, having a hard time keeping on track at work, i cant figure out why i slipped up but in just beyond disappointment with my self

I used to have strong will power but now i feel like i lost that.

Hears to day one i guess :disappointed:

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#2

Don’t beat yourself up

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#3

Im on day three of drinking and not impressed with myself either I was sober over 18 months

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#4

Trying not too, just feeling depressed with my self and feeling pretty crappy, but I will get through this, and praying for you too, I hope we all can get passed these demons.

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#5

Hey hang in there Mathew. I’m rooting for you. I ended up in a relapse myself after some time sober and i know it’s so hard once i get going ti stop. Just not one of those people who can control themselves with substances which is a good thing to know about oneself. Anyway hang in there you got this

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#6

Me too gotta fight those demons

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