I had a pain block injection in my hip bursa this morning, the pain I've had in the past was just one of my many excuses. I'm not sure this injection will work, it just feels like I have an extra pain in the a$$ now.
My ft job has stressed me since I've been there in the +1 year (I know not a long time) so this wk I've gottenore.calls than I've had in over a yr. They've all low browed me 
and I feel that my manager hates me, will not even look at me. Oh well, what can I do I have to continue to pay my bills and I may have to file a bankruptcy soon.
I'm not sure how excited I am for all of my messes I've created right now. Some days I've had have been very happy and some have been I though I was hanging on by a thread but I know if I dont find something to hang onto to keep me sober, I don't think fear will last me forever.
I don't get to many MTG because of my work schedule, they will not work with me to attend mtgs during work hrs.
I just feel so tired 
I should put how grateful that I am that I haven't had a drink in almost a month. I do have a lot going but I don't think it would all be happening so quick if there wasn't something to it and if none of it is supposed to happen then I guess it's not also.
Coming to realize I do not know how to live life and need help
That’s frustrating. I do a fair amount of zoom meetings. You can meet women there and get contact information and find a sponsor. AA inter group has meetings going on constantly around the world.