i had to restart my tracker today. i got drunk last night did some other stuff, too. feeling pretty bummed about it this morning and fearful i will run my entire life into the ground if i don’t do something soon. i had just under a year before my first relapse and it’s been one after another ever since.
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I’m so sorry. I’m just restarting my tracker too for Wednesday. I also fear I am ruining my life. Why on earth is this so hard?? My relapses are also one after the other these days. This just sucks.
i’m sorry to hear you can relate. this is such an ugly monster to battle but i believe in you, one day at a time is all you can do.
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Get back on track girl. Start over and think about how you feel now the next time you want to use. It just takes one time to get it right, you can do this.
I posted a quote on my page I think you’ll like. 
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thank you, im really trying to do it different this time. my way hasn’t worked so i’m going to find some meetings and give that a shot. idk why i’ve always been hesitant of them but if i keep doing what i’m doing ill never get better.
thank you for that
Yep, meetings help. Try reading the unexpected joy of being sober and quit like a woman,
They really helped me.
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i will check them out! thanks!
Sorry to hear about your lapse. Find your path, go to meetings (at least try them, AA, SMART Recovery, etc.), and be teachable. You can get there, and you will, you’ve gotten a year before, and you can do it again and so much more.
Sobriety can be wonderful! Build the kind of life you don’t want to relapse from.
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thanks for those kind words brad! i’ve got some meeting scoped out that i’m going to attend and attempt to connect with some people locally for support as well.
Don't beat yourself up about it. The statistical likelihood that you will relapse is extremely high. When you decided to use, what were you expecting it to do for you? And did it work? My guess is no.
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i’m not sure what i was expecting to get out of it if i’m being honest. i don’t even know why i do it anymore.
It's very hard to make it back after a relapse. Once it becomes an option again and you have so little time it's tye easy way out. Simply stopping drinking/using doesn't fix the problem for most people, you have to recover from the problem which means putting in work. Find yourself a program that works for you and actually recover from your illness. Good luck
thank you, i found some meetings near me i think i’m going to go to. reached out to another friend to join me because i know she is struggling too and going alone sounds terrifying.
That's the first step to true recovery! Just go don't think! Keep going until you find one that you feel comfortable with. Raise your hand and be honest. That's where it starts and is all that's required in the beginning
I think that's a positive sign that you can see that. This was a very important realization for me. But what I was expecting alcohol to do didn't do that at all.
yes it’s a huge step i need to take, ive thought about doing a couple zoom ones first to get a good idea and then testing out the in person ones.
i’m glad you made that realization, calling out the bs alcohol tells us over and over again.
It's too bad it took me 25 years to figure it out