I Hate to Depend on Sponsors and The Way they Say Things . I hate Not having my own Vehicle. I live in Atlanta and im at Imagin wellness living in there housing program. O hate this feeling of Dependence Even My Therapist. None of them Show Me No Real Attention Even wen i Speak on it . I don’t want to Like this Again Doing this Program
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Hi Millz, it reads like you've done this at least a few times. This may not be exactly what you want to hear, if anything, look for the similarities, leave the rest behind.
When I hear stories of those that relapse, I hear that these people kept trying to lead the same life and just stop. These folks weren't done with their experimenting and hadn't reached their bottom and found the gift of desperation.
Once these folks finally admitted their old life didn't work, a new life was started. This is a life I have. A life where I had to start by changing my people, places and playthings. Where I had to be open to suggestion, change and direction. Where I learned my best thinking got me into rehab. Where I fought that I wasn't an alcoholic because I wouldn't be fun anymore. A life where I was completely honest with myself, a Higher Power, and those in my circle.
I want this serene life, my hope is you courageously make a simple change and want it also.
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If your way and your thinking is working good 4 you then forget those people. But if it’s not, you might want to listen to them.
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Millz, I second the above. In regard to sponsors, yeah, if the advice as a whole serves you well, let the rhetoric slide or maybe thi k about a new one. The car, in time my friend. My truck motor blown. Aint had it much more than a year but I suspected someone took me for a ride at the dealership... I have bigger issues internally than to let that get me down so it's just stop, think, focus, readjust how I've been working my program. Work it better, work it harder and pray for patience and clarity.
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As far as the program, where you’re at… Take what you can and leave the rest. As far as attention pour more attention into yourself than ever before. The tables will start to turn..you got this.
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Sounds like you need to take a sh!t, take a shower, get over your self pity, and make a plan. Don't want to depend on others? We all depend on each other, start with managing your self and being able to help others.
And, have a nice day; don't let the mental cycle of crud take you down. You were made for a good purpose, and I look forward to seeing how you get there. It may be difficult, but it's probably simpler than it seems.
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It sounds like you still have a decision to make Millz - do you want a sober life? If you do, you will go to Any lengths to get it - accepting your sponsor, sober housing are all part of that
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Thank you All . Everyone had Valid points. And yes today I Am working harder on my Recovery and I do have to put more Attention on Me . These waves of Emotions and Bipolariezed Thoughts im having is Real . But today I did not Use and I Did Learn something that did help me change. Millzyungofficial1 is My IG
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Outstanding
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Gratitude, buddy!! Some of that sounds like a blessing!