i have 38 days. i hear people talking about feeling like themselves again but i don’t even know who i am. i feel crappy. i feel like human trash. useless.
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Whoa Luna…take it easy on yourself. Let’s try and look at things in a more positive lite. First and foremost, you have 38 days today! That by itself is a huge huge positive. You can’t even begin to move forward until you stop the self destruction of using. You have somehow someway broken this very difficult cycle of insanity! Next, you’ve been reaching out for help. This disease likes isolation and secrecy. I see you pushing yourself to get connected. You’re in here sharing, and you did make it out to a meeting. You’ve also gone to the doctor and asked for help. You struggled for 30 plus days without help, and now you’ve got done meds which are helping. Aldo, you’ve got the documents you’ve been needing so that you can get married as planned. Finally, the Yankees are still in it, and going to win it! It’s all a matter of perspective Luna. Recovery gives you a choice today! Choose to remind yourself that this negative talk is bull💩. Take some time to breathe deep and repeat positive thoughts in your mind. You are ok
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You aren’t trash, you aren’t useless. I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. Please do one thing today to be kind to yourself. Your life is changing and you don’t know how to cope it sounds like. I’m in the same boat… scheduled a counseling appt because I need guidance. We’re around the same amount of days sober, maybe it’s a newbie thing while we figure ourselves out again.
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You are you. Certainly not useless. So many others have tried and failed at what you are doing (myself included) many are with you here and in the world. Love yourself.
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38 going on 39!
You are not trash. Yes it’s a change. You are rediscovering and reintroducing yourself to you and to others for the first time in possibly a long time. It’s an adjustment but gets better. Hang in there. Love ya❤️