I have almost 11 months clean from meth addiction and have 4 days clean from weed. I used weed as a crutch to get off of meth. Now it just makes me feel anxious and paranoid and I am steuggling with depression. So I have decided to stop smoking weed. I went to the doctor yesterday and got some anti depressants and am praying it helps..because lately I feel like I want to use meth just to feel happy. This underlying sadness is in my opinion worse than being a meth addict. I do not want to use. Has anyone else dealt with sudden depression...this has hit me out of nowhere and affecting my relationship.
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Im going thru the same exact thing. Even tho i know going back to meth will ruin all the progress ive made it keeps trying to pull me back, using my mental health to trick me into using again. I think its just the devil working overtime because youve been doing so good, ya know. You're coming up on your 1 year and he wants desperately to make sure you dont make it . Stay strong and keep fighting!
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So coming off meth can make you depressed. It’s the low after being so high it can take time to right itself but if you keep going it will
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Leanna,
YES!!!
I have lived with sudden depression for years. About 10 years that I can actually pinpoint as depression.
I used alcohol for almost 20 years. The depression got to the point that I would drink to prevent (numb) the weight of the depression.
In short, a doctor recommended an antidepressant and reluctantly I accepted the prescription and had it filled. For three months I didn’t take the medication because I feared my state getting worse. Once I toot the daily pill I noticed a month later that I had the ability to speak (think) a positive word to the negativity I would hear within me. For the first time I felt like I had a fighting chance to combat that dark entity.
3 or 4 months later I attended meetings. The connections I made and this new ability to not have depression dominate me allowed me to address the drinking. I had a combination of depression and anxiety going on. Sometimes simultaneously.
I believe the med assisted along with the other things I did to help me get free. Hope this helps.
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…one thing I forgot to add. Good nutrition is EXTREMELY important!!! It helps us to repair, heal, restore, and balance. …very, very important.
It’s my belief that poor nutrition and lack of exercise is what led to my getting depressed, which led to my drinking, which led to anxiety, which led to more drinking, which led to deeper depression, which led to more drinking, which led to loneliness, which led to more drinking...
I think you get the idea.
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I think about 99 percent of us have delt with big time depression as without not sure who would seek treatment otherwise. Was pretty close to death when I came out of treatment.
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I have been on meds for a week now. I am going to meetings and talking to people there. It has helped quite a bit thank you all for your responses I continue this struggle I am determined to stay clean and sober
Yes, Leanna!
All the success to you!
Clean.
Sober.
Renewed.
You can do it, if I can stay sober. It is more the programs ie 12 steps and God the other people that have kept me clean and sober. As I am surely not a poster boy for any 12 step program. Thank you for sharing and helping me to stay sober and clean. You ate going to continue doing it that omis for sure as all the people are going to cheer you on and make sure of your success in the world)