I have been off cocaine and alcohol for about 6 weeks but im still fantasizing and obsessing about doing coke. I dont know how to get the thoughts out of my head. Anyone have any advice?
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That’s normal. Try meditating or reading. If you sit in a room that is completely quiet and just let your thoughts flow and feel the feels eventually you will start thinking of something else. Your brain has been programmed to look for the dopamine high and now you have to try to reprogram it. Give it a chance be patient which is easier said then done I know. Walks in nature help or new experiences also redirect your attention. Stay strong be patient but stay sober 
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Are you plugged into a recovery program? Doing this alone usually doesn’t end well. Coke is a substance that latches onto your psyche. Like Debbie said, need the brain reprogrammed.
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Yes i am in aa and working with a sponsor on the steps. I also attend a cocaine anonymous meeting every wednesday. Thank you both
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This is good to hear!!! Our minds are obsessed with these thoughts of escaping to an unrealistic mental place where we can run to and hide from our everyday reality. The two best things we can do is to stop believing the bs, because our thoughts are lying to us. We need to “play the tape back”. What happens to you every F’n time you think to yourself you can do just a little? Start seeing the truth. This 
was sucking the life out of you! It brought you to your knees. The second thing you can do is start working your program so that your reality isn’t so unbearable that you feel the need to escape from it. It sounds like you are doing these things. Now you just have to continue to work at this ODAAT and be patient. This is a process. You’re doing good my brother
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Thanks so much man
Play the tape through... its a hideous procesz... ata high price... just for now lord
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I deal with those same things brother! I’m almost 5wks sober from both. What works for me is working those 12Steps in AA. Work on those resentments you have towards others that got you here in the first place. If I don’t drink, the urge to do Coke isn’t there for me. I’ve identified my WHY, which is my 1yr old son. I stay mindful all day with quick meditations and prayers to a higher power of my understanding. I got back in the gym, which is proving to be my secret weapon and confidence builder. Also be patient with yourself, it’s gonna be long journey. I hope this helps bro, take care.
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One day at a time brother.
I’m dealing with this too. I hear you. 
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It took me longer to kick 
than it did alcohol, both of which drove me to my bottom. My last drink was in June of 2017, the 23rd to be exact. A year after being given the grace to stop fantasizing about drinking, my manipulative thinking thought well this is AA, not NA, so I can do coke, it was horrible and I even failed a drug test almost three months after that night which brought on a familiar place for me in once again being in trouble with the law. So in short, if you are like me you will fantasize about it being a great time and the coke possibly even bringing you some happiness but it won’t and after the mental prison you will put yourself in will be even worse. It goes away with time the desire to do blow but I’m here to tell you it will suck and you will feel like and it’s a temporary solution. Don’t believe the bs, turn to your program more instead 
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Here is some information about the science and medical explanations on how cocaine rewires your brain. Sometimes knowledge is everything
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Congratulations on your 6 weeks. Keep up the great work.
thats horrifying. Thank you for sharing.
Thanks so much man
Thanks bro
Thank you!
I am 4 months 11 days clean and I can say it was the best decision I ever made to get clean.
My DOC was cocaine and I can relate to what your saying. Keep it up and it gets better ODAAT.
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