I have bipolar and the depression and PTSD and the depression episodes last really long you know and that's what I normally use. I haven't used though I have like two months sober but I write in my journal
I color and i do my photography and also I do things to distract myself but it still doesn't help really with the grief process, but hey, at least I'm trying to manage as best as I can. I'm also on meds but I don't really like taking them because they make me feel normal. But it's mainly they took me off my Celexa. And then my episodes got really really bad so that was for depression and they gave my SSRI when I was in detox but when I went to this mental health facilities, for my mental health due to my addiction and the detox saying my mental health needs were greater than they could handle because I wasn't learning anything really in rehab sure I learned about how to stay sober and what to do and what not to do It was more mainly mental health issues. Caused by my addiction, such as my PTSD due to my addiction, and a lot of other traumatic stuff that happened. So I used mainly because of my mental health is what it boils down to but I think a lot of people do you know I'm not saying all addicts are unstable or anything of that sort but what I'm saying is that a lot of people who are addicted to something or another probably have some form of mental health issue that is not being addressed in Rehab or let's say it's not as sever as I was. It honestly makes me sad because I really like that Rehab that I want to but they were like your mental health problems are more than we can handle and I really like to Crystal my therapist. She was cool. And she knew a guy that I knew that I really liked but whatever that's besides the point im just dealing with a lot and I'm just trying to get through the day you know and I sleep but that really isn't productive.

