I have made it to 6 months 22 days sober today. It has been one heck of an experience. I have gone from living in tiny closet in my once family home that had become barren after divorce and I was hallucinating some unbelievable things during it that even today I still have a hard time with. How I experienced these things really made me question everything I understood about life. They eventually put a protective order in effect for my kids so I can not come around them or talk to them. I am actually still waiting out the time on that order. I was given 6 months to clean up my act and fix my mental health. I did exactly that. At the review hearing the judge said to me that he could feel my sobriety even before I said a word. I rocked that court time. Even my ex wife couldn't stop looking at me. In this short 6 months I have been blessed with essentially everything I need. Last Wednesday moved into my own place after being homeless for 6 years and strung out on methamphetamines. I raised my credit score from 480 to 595 in 6 months. Don't ask me how. I still can't figure it out. Mostly I know it had to do with paying bills and paying them on time. The judge ordered the protective order to drop February 28th and my rights restored to me on this day. I have an incredibly reliable bike that is brand new and currently saving for a car. I keep my head held high now and never let anyone bring me down. I also don't back down. I am doing this thing and my actions speak volumes for my resolve and determination to remain sober and gain life again. I am happy today. I sing today. I make it to work on time and can finish a full night of work without having to make crazy plans to achieve my goal to get high every day. I don't have to smoke meth every day now to survive. I am surviving and am in the best shape of my life and I have very strong discipline. I love myself today. When I return to my kids I will be the best father they can have again and I will never lose them again.
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