I have the sense to know what I want for my life and it's not to die in a lonely messed up state
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Dead is what I ain't . Fighting to live in a world of hate I'm doing alone and loving it
Yes babe but that sounds exhausting I advise you to spend time with someone who has something you want 
and see if you can find an outlet for the anger that will better your life
Anger can be a useful thing don't just sit in it and let it destroy you and everyone around you
How can I use the anger to benefit me? I can be in the emotion for hours !! And it bothers me cuz I have no positive outlet. I just cry
It's exhausting but I'm worth it. I have no one else who's here to fight for me...I remember in my addiction I'd fight other people's battles for them cuz I didn't care about living or dying. Today I am showing up for me. It's the only way I know how to show up?
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Glad to hear that you are reaching out to a better place in your head
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Have you found anything yet to replace the things that you are trying to give up? don't leave the hole open for you to fall back in you have to fill it up with useful things that won't be stressful to you exercising works for me and I drink a lot of instant coffee. Black with no sugar
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Black no sugar! Oh gosh. No I haven't found anything to replace anything and I find myself sleeping alot. Not cool
Yeah honey you have to fill in the holes.... you have to there is no other way work out go to church drink coffee volunteer somewhere go to meetings. But you have to do something other than what you were doing otherwise you Will fall back in the hole you are trying to get out of