I just do not care about my job. I’ve been in this “career” now for over a decade. Web development, in any capacity, is just endless rounds of nothing but changes, almost with no reason. All at the whim of those that have absolutely no appreciation for the time or effort each minute change, and the subsequent dependency breaks, entails!
Working production is even worse, because it’s never right, and the final product is never actually complete. There’s nothing of which, at the end, you can actually be proud.
I used to just long for happy hour, endless nights at the bar, just to get some kind of escape. I only worked for booze. Now, I don’t drink, and I just am having so much trouble finding a reason to care, at all, about this work anymore.
I’ve paid off all my debt, I have $25k in the bank now, and over $23k out on invoice right now. I’m clearly good at what I do, but I just don’t enjoy it, at all.
I need something to care about in life. This is misery.