I just filmed a 25 min apology/amends video to my best friend of 14 years who stopped talking to me in my last relapse. I’m scared af to send it. I didn’t know what to all say. So I explained what happened, what my mistakes were, where I am, apologized for everything I could remember and how i’ve changed. I’m nervous to send it 
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In my experience, I usually go way overboard on my first draft lol. While it’s good for me to get it all out, it’s not necessarily the best way to make amends with the other person. 25 minutes sounds like a lot. I worked with my sponsor when I made/make amends to help me focus on my side of the street and to keep it simple. At 7 months of sobriety, it’s definitely enough time to start making amends. Not sure if you’re working a 12 step program, but if so, I highly recommend you work it with a sponsor and in order. My first time around I did it myself and made a lot of mistakes. Regardless, great to see you continuing to progress on your sober journey
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For sure! I know I personally wasn’t going to send the whole 20 mins. K
But I did re listen to it and know what I can/should cut out. I feel like I said everything possible in 25 mins so now I can definitely pick and choose 
I think by next weekend I’ll have it finished. I’m shooing for no more than 10 mins! I’ve been working 12steps. Just not with a sponsor. I’ve been using the Russell Brand 12 step book lol
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Great! I only know the AA way so excuse my skewed references. I’m happy to hear you are working a program, and not doing this all on your own. It’s my belief that it’s best to battle this disease with a team of help. Keep sharing and staying connected to us in recovery. We are so much stronger together
As Allen said, what do you have to lose? I will add that many of the folks I made amends to responded first with a bit of reluctance and some with sheer hate. After maintaining sobriety pretty dang successfully for a few years now, all of them are nothing but encouraging, and when they arent, I just keep doing g my thing and Maybe give them a bit of space.
The good news about working with a sponsor, especially working those particular steps, is that the sponsors generally have had a fair amount of experience and are able to guide us a bit while treading the ever so delicate soil that is amends.
I think for this reason mostly, it is recommended that you work with a sponsor. To avoid some of the mistakes that ultimately can create unnecessary triggers. I think...
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Thats really good advice. I appreciate it. I guess I don’t need to rush anything. I’m only 7 months sober. It might even be beneficial to still back off and wait. Then I can work with a sponsor potentially, give me more sobriety under my belt and heal a little more. I think I just have the urgency of wanting everything to go back to what it was before my addiction was bad 
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Def go through it with a sponsor. Or someone that knows what’s going on. Because you’re going to have a reaction no matter the outcome. Good or bad. And it’s good to have support for both
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