Today like yesterday is a hard day todays harder though someone i thought loved me and was there for me has turned there back and now i feel more alone than ever my brain is deep in itself and all i keep thinking is i need something bro something to make me sleep something to make me forget to not care i just dont anymore
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I m sorry you are going through a rough time. It s never easy to discover someone you thought cared for you isn't there for you. Don't allow the actions of someone else to cause you to do harm to yourself. Keep moving forward and focus on the positive things in your life.
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I'm sorry you're having a hard time. You have to decide if whatever is going on is worth going back to a life of misery. If you're sober today you have a better chance of getting through the hard times.
Action is your best friend right now. Get to meetings, online meetings if you have to. Get outside, walk in fresh air. Read the literature, call a friend. Anything to stay in the moment. If you go to bed tonight and you're still clean and sober, recognize the miracle you are.
I'm praying for you today. You can do this. Be your own best friend. 
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I hear ya. Keep trying. Put something visual to look at. Maybe a desire chip in your wallet. Helps me
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Great advice
Never let anyone other than yourself hold that position in your life. The earlier you claim this right the better off and stringer person forever more. Loosing someone we love is always hard but try spending your time making your self better and volunteer ti help others.
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I needed that
Y'all are all so amazing thank u all for all these comments they really have helped in the situation at hand I'm hurt I'm heartbroken and lost but it is what it is right??? Best to just cut ties burn bridges and move on right???
That comment right there is me right now I swear I'm literally standing in front of red dot debating on going in like I was a alcoholic for years after my husband died quit for seven years that's when I became hooked on other stuff now right back to drinking it's a never ending circle and I'll never truly be clean I'll probably have to die first just being honest
What's a desire chip??? I don't have a sponsor I don't know the steps I'm literally just trying to make it through each day
Its a chip that you get to not drink for 24hrs. Id encourage to look for a in person meeting near you or on zoom. Getting a sponsor is encouraging because it helps you to get accountability and they get you a book and share their experience with you, as yall go thru steps
Everything AA app is a free resource that you get all the literature on and meeting guide app allows you to look for meetings
Had one then one day they just disappeared idk if I triggered em to much or something but they won't talk to me SOOOOOO I just been trying to do it on my own
Yeah i hear ya. I lost my first sponsor and just had got done with step 4. But i sought out my Higher Power and He brought me a new one. I had to be willing to get to where i am today. 3.5 months sober after a dwi in june.
I need NA more than AA I am a alcoholic yes but can control that part it's the NA that I can't control it has more control of me than I do of it and ain't had any in 26 days as of today
Best of luck
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Never thought I would be able to say I was 26 days clean Fr I don't remember the last time I ain't been strung out for that long at one time... Guess today's not as bad as I thought
Just wish I knew what to do other than chase a buzz I've done that for so many years that's all I know and now that I need something to keep me occupied that's the first thing that popped up
Hon I'm available for chat I'm also on Facebook