I just want to say to all the newbies I love u thru the blood of the lord . I beat the drugs thru adult and teenchallenge it was no picnic I would have rather died at first , getting up a 6 pm after being addicted to meth c, crack and fentanyl if the holy spirit of God didn’t kick in and make me feel a little less shame than i had felt over a two to 3 year period I had walked away from a 30 year marriage and a 41 year consecutive at a pulp and paper mill sober but then retired or get fired but i obviously had a full pension and i was working for nothing thats how messed up i was i went to two treatment centers in a year apart the first one i was clean for 4 months the seconf i was clean only the month i was there so i went to eat on my way home from Winnipeg and stopped at the mcphilips Casinos and my girlfriend at the time never been so we eent in with 40 bucks each and she gave me her twenty and she wanted to go so i put it in and pressed the button s won some credits, kept spinning i was in a hurry cause she went iur to car and i pressed max bet to loose my money and bam i won 5400 well I couldn’t get home fast enough ipayed a couple grand worth of bills just to keep the wolves away and the rest on meth and cocaine, i never went back drinking cause i had 30 years in the program of ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS IM STILL ALCOHOL FREE since August 28th 1988 and still am thanks to god not me i went there and chaired meetings for years and years then said f everybody let someone else do it any they were mad at me cause they never had to lift a finger i did it all bought it all our club was sinking at the time and our members weren’t paying enough for rent. Anyhow back to my walking away from my marriage, i had to ungrateful daughters and ungrateful wife and eventually 6 ungrateful grandchildren so i said f it im feeling ignored and unappreciated from a bunch of ungrateful humans but my dogs adored me and i them . So i oacked a bag and left i was a millwright working 12 hour shift rotation and I worked every opportunity i could, my wife was not working for 14 years the daughters had keft and kids I bought them a house to rent and then my other daughter left her husband to so i bought her a house to to rent right clise to her sister and thought oh this is going to work out great for both of them, with kids and work and school and kids to hang out …. But Nooo they started to hate one another over a new boyfriend her sister didn’t approve ov nuethrr di i hewas an control freak took my daughter to Saskatchewan and I haven’t seen her since my son in kaw has the 3 boys but thats a show to cause the boy are all 6’4” and taller along with the dad being the tallest at 6’7”
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To be continued I just finished a 14 hour day at mill shutdown so spelling errors and I am tired but u people are all gods children and he loves you and wants you to talk pray all day long if u have to he won’t let u down he will show u a way out inTEMPTATION
Get back up if u fall please 
do not let the devil 
have a seat at ur table u come this far , I don’t care if u have 1 day that’s awesome 
I still remember the feeling I bawled like a baby my first AA MEETING I just new something jumped into my heart 
that night at my first AA MEETING IT WAS THE HOLY SPIRIT I NEVER TOOK A NITHER DRINK OR SMOKED WEED . For 30 plus years I’ve even quit smoking so u can do it to goodnight I love u all
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