I keep asking my cousins for help and they keep giving me an excuse
Just a car ride or chats on the phone. The family sees me as a monster. Wonderful support system I have 
Well, there is here and zoom meetings if need be. Family is important yet staying sober is the most important. This needs to be about you. The family will change their thinking once you change the past and look to the future…sober. The damage can be mended over time. Just give a new life a chance. Always gets better
I have found the worst support system is family.
I echo what Kevin said, find a different support system. Your family may come around in the future, but you need to put your sobriety first, so find support through this app and recovery meetings of any kind.
Diddo what Kevin and Jenn said. You need to make this happen for yourself.
I have no one, my “friends” gave me heroin behind my Back for over a year and only told me when they moved across county. “The weed was so good because it had heroin in it the whole time, have a nice life”
So I’ve been flying solo and sober for almost 7 months, with really little help
Try an NA meeting or 3. Listen closely. Ask for a sponsor. You’ve broken the physical addiction. Now it’s time to clean up the past to make room for a great future.
I have a problem with the rooms. I knew someone who went into a room and got with the wrong people and ended up hanging out with them after the meeting and this guy had heroin laced with fentanyl. My close friend took it and was dead within 24hrs. The system where I am doesn’t work
Part of sobriety is definitely finding new sources of support!
I feel like asking someone to come sit with me for an hour because I have bad anxiety, isn’t a lot. Im not asking for money or anything, I’m asking my family for time
Try zoom meetings. Like having someone sitting with you. They have them all over the world in AA and NA
Ohhh good idea, I like that. Thanks
Like Steve said . We have to do for use.if you have to walk to meetings then to it.if family life is to hard with no help.then help your self and leave.sobriety first.no matter what.
Find another support system at your meetings
I think it’s so wonderful you are reaching out for help! That’s such a great sign that you want this really bad. You got some great replies and suggestions here. I have nothing to add except that I’m m so pulling for you! 

Thank you 
Unfortunately, you can't force your family to come on this journey with you.
You need a new support system, they will be like family, you can find them in meetings, both physical & Zoom, they are on this app...they will 'sit with you', they will want the best for you and most importantly they will support you on this journey because it will be their journey too. You can love your family and you can also let them go until they choose to support you 
Your family may not support you and you don’t have to de with them.your choice stay or leave
Stand up for your sobriety.some times family are not the best.but it is our choice stay or move.no contact Intel.you have a year.
I would think you have probably hurt some people while you were using. Been there for sure. It might take time for people to believe in you again. But those that truly love you will come around. Stay focused on your sobriety, that should keep you too busy to worry about how others see you.