I keep going through cycles where my drug addiction keeps coming back. Cocaine is the drug I abuse the most and it’s hard to stop. It’s been like 4 years of heavy use. It even gives me a lot of anxiety so don’t know why I go back to it. And I use downers to even it out so now that’s a problem. It’s a struggle every day. I started using it sometimes during week when I’m not even going anywhere. I really want to stop. Any tips would help a lot. Thank you.
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Have you considered rehab? You might check the telehelp tab in Sober help to see if they have any guidance for someone in you particular situation.
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I recommend rehab, if you've tried it before and didn't work, hey look, relapses happen, try it again. I'm in rehab for the 5th time and cocaine is really hard to kick I been trying to quit since 2001. Relapse is a part of recovery. Don't be too hard on yourself, give yourself a break and find people that can help you through it. We do recover. If you need my help I'm here for you.
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Rehab didn't work for me... I was the plug for a long time so it was near impossible to get away from. If you want it bad enough stay sober and go to meetings.... Something will click. Find a sponsor who's sobriety you want... I can't stress that enough. Get someone to sponsor you who you see as successful and happy. Stay after it. It sucks at first but once you find and accept a new perspective it gets better every day
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Get out of your own head. Reach out to someone who understands. You aren't alone
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Been right there. I was just reading some journal entries last night from that period in my life. What really struck me was how impossible it felt to stop. Like, totally outside the realm of possibility, you know?
And I don’t think at that point I even wanted to stop. And you do. You already have a tremendous asset right there. 
I don’t think anything helped me more than the realization that if I stopped, I could stop worrying about drugs. I know that sounds small, but man — that was my whole life. There was some pain involved in stopping. I didn’t do rehab but I needed medical oversight to get off benzos. It was hard. It was worth it. Each of us only ever has to do it once.
And what Wes said … you aren’t alone. Keep sharing. It helps so much.
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Thank you so much for this response. At this point it’s not fun anymore so that’s making it easier to stop it’s when I feel healthy and haven’t done it in a while that scares me I may go back to it but I guess that’s the journey. I hate feeling anxious all the time and I think these drugs add do it a lot.
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I so get that. When it seems like it could be fun again, I’m in trouble. I didn’t want to really commit to staying clean for sooooo long. It felt like giving away some important person agency, which, for me, is insane. Do you have folks in your life who support your being clean? People you can talk to without judgment?
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I so get that. When it seems like it could be fun again, I’m in trouble. I didn’t want to really commit to staying clean for sooooo long. It felt like giving away some important person agency—which, for me, is insane. I gotta give that sh*t up. Do you have folks in your life who support your being clean? People you can talk to without judgment?
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Yes I do have people that can support me though might be scared to open up about it right now. I will say my one friend who does C almost every day was around me today. I was at his place because his father is in hospital and I didn’t partake in any drugs and I’m proud about that. I’ll know I won’t hate myself tomorrow and have anxiety. Small steps.
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Yes! Be proud of yourself. That’s more than a small step.
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This is a wonderful move in the right direction. I always tell myself if it was so great I wouldn’t be wanting to stop.
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I hated rehab too….I like a meetings and talking to people after meetings……
Come early stay late and do the damn work... It really is simple if you commit yourself to it
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Yep. 100%