I keep relapsing. I can go weeks without & then boom back to using. I have 6 months clean from fentanyl but I can’t quick smoking weed
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No one said it’s easy…. Unfortunately relapsing is part of recovery , I hear that all the time …. I’m in recovery since 2020 and I’ve relapsed a bunch of times … don’t be too hard on yourself … just stay strong and take it a day at a time
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Here if you need someone to talk to
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Stay true to yourself
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Sounds like you still haven’t gotten to the core issues. Pls seek out a therapist, group therapy (IOP), and take time to reflect. Using is only masking the real problem. First, our thinking is problematic. I know for myself, once i healed my core issues I stopped relapsing. It’s okay to take medication! It’s okay to see a therapist. It’s okay to reach out for help! I hope you can figure out what’s fueling the addiction.
Sending positivity 
Dm me (っ'-')╮=͟͟͞͞ you got a sober friend in me !!
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Hey Anna I know how it feels to relapse but going 6 months from fentanyl is amazing. I can’t say it better than @two151529. We are all here for u 
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I feel ya. I’m 63 days sober from alcohol and weed. Alcohol was my huge issue. I relapsed 7 times in a year and ended up in the ER all 7 times before I put myself in an inpatient facility. Even though alcohol was my main issue, I find myself wanting to smoke but not wanting to drink. The IOP I am in does weekly drug tests so it holds me accountable. ( even though it’s legal here in CO)
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Sobriety is one piece of recovery. What recovery activities are you doing daily?
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The struggle is real!
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Wow I wish I could go weeks. I only a day or two
I’m determined to make it past two weeks this time.
Annaa addiction is stronger than any individual’s will. Left to fight addiction alone you will lose every time. It’s an insidious patient monster of a disease that has rewired your brain. It knows it can wait you out till you smoke weed, keep that up and eventually it will bring fantanyl back into your life. I use to hate calling it a disease because it sounded like my usual easy explanation for my actions. Now I realize it needs to be treated like a disease after the fact. You have to put everything you can between you and your substance. You need a program. There is none better than AA. You need to stop fighting it on Anna’s terms and start fighting on “our” terms. That’s means a program followed vigorously. That means surrounding yourself with the right people. Going to the right places. Seeking help every day. Mental health, physical health. Only worrying about today. It’s not easy, but it does get easier and it’s worth it. It’s freedom.
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May I ask if you are doing anything for your recovery. NA meetings, support groups any type of support. This can’t be done without help.