I keep telling myself this is the last time ......
...... When will it be the best time, when I'm dead.......... I need help
i had to loose the greatest job i ever had, my girlfriend, my friends, my money to realize i have to stop.. i touched deep down. you are on time for not letting it be more bad. you can do this message me anytime if you want! you are not alone
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Thank you so much it's like you knew exactly what I've been worrying about. I know for sure if I don't stop now I'm bout to loose the exact same things and that would kill me
Please reach out and find a meeting. Also AA and NA have 24/7 assistance hotlines so you can talk to anyone right away! Please reach out to me if you want!
I was a chronic relapser. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t get past 4 months. It came to the point where I thought I would never get sober and tried to take my life. The experience was a wake-up call. This disease was going to kill me. I went to my 3rd rehab and left everything and everyone I loved and moved to Florida (from Colorado). There, I got into sober living and I haven’t had a drink in over 4 years. The people who never gave up on me were the people in the rooms, no matter how many times I relapsed, they welcomed me back with open arms. Find people that lift you up when you’re down and keep you humble when you’re in the clouds!
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Yes ma'am that's what I'm trying to do now. I'm currently working , I have 
been to plenty of rehabs but wasn't ready to change. Now that I am ready I still can't see myself going to another rehab because I want to keep my job us I can't stand isolation not being able to provide for self having to depend on others but I really want to get sober . My boyfriend is at a place called 12 way foundation living sober trying to prepare for our future and get hisself together and I'm just lost
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First off, be proud of yourself for recognizing your disease and your desire to change.
Second, I’m going to give it to you straight. There is a difference between WANTING to change and WILLING to change. I wanted to change with every fiber of my being, but I was unwilling. I still wanted to hang out with my drinking buddies, I still wanted to hang out of bars. I wanted to get out of my toxic relationship. But I wasn’t WILLING to do it.
People will coddle you with going to meetings etc. You already know what needs to be done. But are you willing to do it? That job you are afraid of losing? You will lose it anyways if you’re not sober. You may die before you lose your job. Is your life worth that?
You know what I wish someone would have told me? Get off your a** and do it! Stop making excuses, this disease WILL kill you if you aren’t willing to change. So stop f***ing around and do it!
I too one more timed myself to death. Today, just for today, I don't have to fall prey to the disease of addiction hollering a steadfast stream of lies in my head. I have a choice today. And I choose life.
Same here
Loose the boy friend!!! And get sober!!!!!! It is a excuse. Aa meetings.every day for 3 years.