I know I need to get sober
I’m 34 and literally have been escaping reality for 20 yrs now.
I’m afraid
I never tried anything and i just realized how fast time went.
In between it all I had good times and treat people like I want.
I’m pretty outside , handsome everyone says…. Broken and almost defeated inside.
Crack has a hold of me
Every day I say no
I gave away my life that I built for a drug .
I’m just scared and have to ask will it be okay?
I’m embarrassed and I am even to ashamed to go to a physical meeting.
I know it will be okay
I need help or sense of direction on how to care and not play into my head.
This is me asking for help…
Begging for a number or friend ti message and talk about life in general and how my drug use is going. I’m going to attempt to get sober and stay sober.
Idk what or who to call
I can’t tell anyone hey I’m a crackhead .
I’ve been lying to myself and to everyone.
I won’t live two lives anymore .
Too much stress.
This is my window of willingness.
Anyone ? Just to talk ?
No phone number needed.
I’d even like to just read or listen to what yiu have to say.
I have no one in my life that I’m honest with
… Go to ur google type in NA VIRTUAL MEETINGS, it’ll then take u to a list of meeting for all the times of that day! I actually go to one every morning and it’s all throu zoom, so just make sure u download that app or I think u can do it off ur internet browser too. But anyway, if u go to zoom I’ll just give u the zoom id numbers and password, u should come it starts at 9! Monday through Friday it’s 830-930 am and Saturday n Sundays is 9-10 am. Okay so the zooom id is : 657 204 6389 and the password is : just4today all lowercase! I’ve found 2 sponsors there so far n they’re legit like just as good as a in person one or whatever, in my opinion. U can also go to 