I know I’ve made many mistakes with my drinking , I know my wife has put up with ALOT…. I know when I drink I could be verbally abusive which I know I’m wrong , but something my wife told me last week when I relapsed that I can’t seem to shake is she said to me “kill yourself already” … obviously I’m not going to do that but I’m starting to think that me and my wife splitting up is for the best
She is only saying this because it’s actually what your doing by drinking. Unfortunately for our families they get to a point, I believe, that it’s so hard for them to watch us slowly killing yourself with stupid alcohol. She is probably past the point of worrying. I know when I had my hopefully last relapse, those are the words I would say to myself because I watched a slow death with alcohol and it was sad and painful to watch. I just would pray that I wouldn’t wake up and get it over quicker.
Thank god I ended up going to a great detox/rehab hospital for over days and they saved my life. Try to get more professional help. Get on craving meds, seizure meds, build a recovery team. Life is so much better without that poison. Promise.
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