Keep trying, even 1 day without is a plus!
That's just part of the process, don't be too hard on yourself. I am a bit older and I have been doing this same cycle since I was a teenager, eventually winding up homeless and living the street life. I didn't come from that environment, I wound up there, for 12 years. Been to more rehabs and detoxes than I can count, and have managed to make it here to this lovely old age that I am....with the mindset of a teenager at times. If I can do it, you can do it. Just don't be too hard on yourself, the guilt and shame is all part of it, at the end of the day, they're feelings and emotions and much like a rocking chair, you can sit and rock in it, it's something to do, but it won't get you anywhere but back to using all over again. Take this time and energy and do something productive for the day, get into meetings or programs and go one day at a time. Don't overcomplicate things with your feelings and emotions. Just get through the day. I hope this helps, best of luck to you, you can do this, if you didn't want to, you wouldn't be here right now.
Shame will get you nowhere. It feeds this disease. Be proud of yourself for getting back up. Focus on the fact that youâre still here and youâre still fighting. Donât focus on the fact that you slept. We all slept a human nature. Itâs OK. Youâre not bad or defective. You can do this.
You're still trying. That's a win. Your relapses are shorter, that's a win. You're talking about it....huge win.
You can start your day over at any point, I believe in you!