I dont think i could be any more obvious but maybe hes just oblivious. Im really nervous he doesnt see me in that way( conforming all my false belifs)
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I feel this one. Something i wrestled with for a long time with 1 person. Like decades. After making amends with this person (who has been a wonderful supporter in my recovery journey) I finally had an honest discussion with her about my feelings. They are not returned in the same way. I'm still kinda processing it. That being said, I'm so happy I did it. I'm so relieved to be on the other side of not knowing. So relieved to have the weight of figuring out what to do, who to be, to get what I want. I can move on now. I can accept reality. I can let go of who I want someone else to be and love what God made them to be, love the gift that her presence in my life is, and continue to work on me. My higher power has things in store for me, being upset about not having what I want for me, is being ungrateful for what is supposed to be. God is better at planning the universe and executing results than I am, I have to trust him. Thy will be done. Sorry it was so long, really close to what I've been going through.