I lost my job sober because of anger issues, got a flat tire next morning and my spare had a flat I broke down and used! It was same ole pain and misery went home confused, frustrated and humiliated once again. I’m not giving up I’m sober today and will start over.
Praying for you, George 
Life on life’s terms. It was a rough patch, don’t beat yourself up man. We all get them. Glad to hear you are starting over. We all stumble a bit. I went through a two week dry drunk and my wife was CERTAIN I was drinking. I didn’t but came really close to it. I believe in you my man. You got this!
Stay sober. Drinking won't make anything better, probably will compound everything and make it worse.
Get help at meetings.make lots of friends.they are there to help.