I Loved You Meth!

Recovery
#1

You Couldn't Let Me Go!

When I first met you I was so impressed. You gave me a high I never felt before. You were so fun and everyone would have a blast with you all night long. I thought you were the shyt over all the others I've tried. I loved you Meth! I loved you for so many reasons.

You were cheap, accessible, tasted good, fun, you kept me flying for hours, and OH MOMMA, you made bumpin uglies fooking M I N D blowing :exploding_head:!! BUT, you made life change for me, and I had no choice but to leave you.

I left you for 14yrs., and I was so happier without you! You're a real piece of shyt you know that! Don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about! You know exactly what you do. You're the biggest narcissist I've ever met. You love bomb people and make them believe your the greatest thing since sliced bread. You brainwash people until they can't live without you. Once that happens, you start to slowly and methodically ruin their lives.

I've never seen you remorseful you SOB!! You make people lose themselves and become immoral individuals. I've seen good moms and dads lose their children over you, allow people to use their bodies for you, steal from loved ones, go to prison, and sometimes die! Just to be with you one more time.

You prey on people who already have a low sense of self and make them your slave. I KNEW NOT TO TRUST YOU AGAIN! BUT, COVID HAPPENED, MY WIFE LEFT WITH OUR KIDS WITHOUT TELLING ME SHE WAS LEAVING!! I WAS ISOLATED, ALONE, AND I WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN!! I DIDN'T WANT TO FEEL IT ANYMORE!! I DIDN'T WANT TO FEEL NOTHING AT ALL!!

I made the call and brought you back into my life. I've regretted it ever since. You're even worse than before, even though you're not as good. Why won't you let me go? Haven't you taken enough from me? I lost my family, I've lost friends, I've lost trust, respect, and recently just lost my 24 yr. career.

You even made me try to get cops to kill me. 2 unsuccessful inpatient trips to Hazelden, and I still can't let you go!! I FOOKING HATE YOU WITH A PASSION!!

I haven't seen or talked to my babies in a year, and it's killin me man!! I have to get rid of you once and for all!! I'm taking my life back. I'm going to do whatever it takes to get my kids back in my life. They need me and I need them. I know how to defeat you. I know I cannot do it alone. I should've kept going back!!!

You and I are finished! I know you won't just let me walk away. I'M RUNNING AWAY FROM YOU!! I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN!! I FOOKING MEAN IT THIS TIME!!

Goodbye you evil FOOKER!

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#2

Thank you for this share.
I’m almost 7 months clean and sober from meth and alcohol, I lost my freaking mind coming off that poison. I still don’t feel like myself after the places SHE took me to, the people she wanted me to be around, she ruined my mind, body, and soul, and I let her!

“Crystal meth will lift ya up until ya break”

But you already know - we DO recover, you have got this! I believe in you, I’m proud of you, and we’re here for you! Keep coming back and thank you so much for this vulnerable share :purple_heart:

you had 15 years - that’s an inspiration and you can do that again! But this time it’ll be for the rest of your life!

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#3

Wow. This is powerful. Godspeed brother. Praying for you man.

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#4

You are incredible David! Your story is so f’ng real! It hurt to read it thru. I’m praying for you. You are still alive and here for a reason. You have done it once before, and you can rise once again my friend. You have a message to share with the world. We are all pulling for you to get your life back. We love you. May you be blessed with a new clean and sober life :pray::peace_symbol:

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#5

In
I appreciate the love! Good to be home, surrounded by my addiction warriors!

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#6

Amen brother. It took me a long time to finally overcome that demon.

#7

David!!!! I think this insight you have is amazing! The way you told your story is amazing!! You have a deeply creative side and I think you should write more. I can relate my friend! Hang tight!

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#8

You did it the first time! The second time is even harder, but you can do it! I have faith in you. Praying for you to come home :heart::pray:

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#9

Thank you, Desiree!

#10

Rooting for you David. Thank you for sharing. :pray:t4:

#11

Thank you for sharing brother that was powerful, and relatable. Find that strength again and get through one day at a time. You’ll make your way back to them - just hang in there! Wishing you the best.

#12

Bro, this needs published. Thank you so much for sharing.

#13

This was inspired. Thank you. Man I’m rooting for you. You are right that you can’t do it alone. This isn’t willpower. This is disease that requires treatment every day for life brother. But that treatment really comes down to living a great life.

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Ps. I grew up in St. Paul