I’m 2 months sober and still as repulsed by alcohol as the day I randomly woke up and the thought made me vomit. I honestly believe my brother who passed away to suicide 3 years ago who also shared my drinking problem is who’s stepped in to help me mentally as a guardian angel when I couldn’t help myself, because he saw me going down the road he went on. I was there til his last breath literally just me and him, I woke up for work that morning and found him since we lived together and I was helping him battle his demons….. I was a heavy drinker then too but of course with the ptsd I got from the trauma of finding him and I developed bpd on top of it my drinking got worse…but 2
Months ago exactly 60 days ago I woke up and physically can’t bring myself to take a drink, I instantly feel nauseous even thinking about it. I think since I couldn’t save him he’s trying to save me…
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