In November of 2021, I relapsed on a substance I had never even known someone to even use. That night, it took me only a split second to give away seven years of continuous sobriety in exchange for two years of unadulterated, H3LL in its purest form. I have lost nearly everything-no, I gave, nearly everything away due to my choices, that wasn’t nailed down in my home. I nearly gave away my right arm due my choices. I could have easily given away my life. Through those “losses,” if you will, have great impact on me, it’s the realization I had, going into treatment, that, in addition, to giving away my material things, I was giving away parts of my spirit, I gave away the parts of me
That make me who I am that had the great impact-that is what brought me to my knees. Changing and losing who I am to normalize a horrific lifestyle. The
Incomprehensible demoralization of felling utterly powerless, no, not just powerless, but enslaved and shackled by a substance is what nearly killed me.
With that being said, Today, I am thrilled to Stand before you, having completed an intensive inpatient program. With 63 days clean, sober. With a new mindset and a simple goal of striving to grow every-d@mn-day, as I find those missing pieces of my spirit or essence and find my new “normal!”
