I’m not here for dating but for like minded peers who understand the addiction and struggle without judgement. People who has the same perceptive view on drinking. I was sober for 9 months straight then I went the next 6-8 months able to only socially drink maybe once a month and not getting drunk. Now it’s happening again, I’m drinking myself sick, downing 5 margaritas in less than 2 hours…. Ivs in the er, missing work, dehydration, risky behaviors all the way till 5-6 am, meaningless arrangements, no energy, and even then still thinking oh if someone invites me out for a drink I’ll be okay it’s just one…. But after my 5th margarita last night my inner power came back….. my mind and body said no stop order a water and get yourself together, tell this guy at the bar no he can’t buy you another drink and you’re going home to your dog ALONE. That no you don’t want to go have more drinks somewhere else or his place. That you want to go home and cuddle your dog by yourself and go to bed, that this isn’t worth it, that the headache isn’t worth it, the nausea, the sickness, the explosive poops, the exhaustion, the cramps, the sweats, it’s not worth it. You’re better then this and can and have been doing better. But the only way to continue is to go abstinent completely. No more social drinking. I have to admit I HAVE A PROBLEM. Especially when I’m thinking about alcohol all the time again, excited for my next drink, putting drinking before my health and we’ll being, letting it interfere with my career, letting it cause more chaos and most of all the dreadful feeling of guilt and shame I have the morning after…..here’s to day 1 🧚🏻♀️🧜🏼♀️ because I can and will do this and most of all I’m better than this.
1 Like