I’m failing myself. I stay stay sober for a while and then I get triggered to drink and party. But I can’t control my limits and cause problems in my marriage because of it. Also the guilt eats me alive
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The fact that you're here means you're not failing. One day at a time and don't give up on yourself and your marriage 
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We are just human. No one is perfect
It sounds like you’re learning about yourself and your limitations/ boundaries you need with yourself. It’s all part of the process and you’re doing the best you can. Take a deep breath. Recovery happens one day at a time and in the grace we give ourselves
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Sounds exactly like me. I suggest you go to A.A. and see if you identify with the people there.
It sounds like your eyes and heart are opening up to the truth of the matter. There are many groups to try A.A. Celebrate Recovery, N.A. One Day at a Time one moment at a time taking this sinful world as it is not as I would have it. Gain trust, truth and a circle of friends to walk through this with.
When we first start seeking help people tend to think that just because we go to one meeting we are fixed. Even our spouses. The more you go the more you will hear things like it’s a process. And it truly is. It also teaches us patience. Pace yourself don’t try and rush. Enjoy the journey one day at a time. Sometimes it’s a moment at a time.