I’m having a pretty rough day today…. I relapsed and let down everyone and thing I love, and I really let myself down. I’m just looking for ppl to connect with in hopes that we can help each other out on this road to recovery. I want so badly to move past this relapse and be the man that I’m supposed to be. Depression and anxiety have taken hold of me today as the aftermath from my poor decision making. If anyone else out there is struggling maybe we can help each other out by keeping one another honest. Thank you all for your love and support. It means more to me than words can express.
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Let me be the first to tell you that relapse is a part of the deal, nothing to be ashamed or depressed over, but something to learn from. I would bet most of us on here had relapsed dozens of times before finding long term sobriety. Pick yourself up and move forward in the program it's well worth it
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Thanks David. My two goals I set for myself today is to be of service any way and anywhere I can and to do better than I did yesterday. I’m not going to be a sissy about this, but instead take the warriors approach and fight my way through this. Thank you for the encouragement. I needed a little kick in the rump.
Been there many times! All you can do is get up and learn from it. Make changes so you don't get trapped in the same situations. Glad your back!
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Thanks Steve. I could t be happier to be back. What a god dmn struggle this can be at times. But sum’btch it’s worth it my man!!
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I couldn't agree more. It's a tough battle at times.
Bruce my thoughts are with you. I know how easy it is to become a prisoner of our own minds. Sometimes we can only take things one second at a time. Remember to be kind to yourself 
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Thank you lovergurl! I will be kind and I will be gentle. And I will come out of this refined and a better man…. Because of the love I get from ppl like you!!!
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I've been there myself, I know how overwhelming it can be. I hope you find peace with yourself. Just remember it's only a relapse and it does not define you . Today is a new day and a fresh start!
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Thank you so much Krissy. You’re a beautiful human being. Thanks for the encouragement and I pray that you keep on shining as you are.
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The light allows follows the darkness. Good is coming!
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Thanks Jenny!!!
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I struggle depression and anxiety. So I can relate to you, contact me anytime and we can help each other
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I was never a believer of “relapse is part of your recovery” it just felt like a free pass. Until I relapsed. Now I get it. Sometimes you have to fight the battle more than once to win the war. I know that I would rather STAY sober than GET sober again. That SUCKED!!!!! Lol
I’m going to hold you to that Bridget… I’m sorry that you suffer from those conditions. On top of being an addict.. I am a Bi-Polar Paranoid Schizophrenic. So believe me when I say I understand better than most….
Oh boy do I understand what you mean on that. Relapsing feels like an unexplainable self defeat. The getting back up and starting back over is cause for some pretty disgusting feelings. But we do as we must to get back on the horse and carry on with our heads held.. well slightly up in hopes of a better tomorrow. Thank you for your share. Everyone has been amazingly supportive.
It’s only a relapse. Not a life style!!! Today is a new day!! Wishing you happiness!!!
You are the man you are supposed to be. That's how you are here. And relapse is not starting over - it's just a stumble. Besides, mornings are so much better in Soberland. You just keep on, keepin' on.
In the words of Andy Frisella...Every single one of us has things we wish we could change in our past but to give it any energy? Something that is literally impossible for you to change or control...will only leave you frustrated and bitter. The past is an incredible resource for success! Take inventory...do not repeat mistakes. Your effort and energy belong in the present! ...Andy said it best and I need such personal reminder of this at times that I have it written down by my bed to look at when sleeping and awakening (of course this reminder applies to all things past..."mistakes", regrets, relapse, slips, etc
Thanks Ed! I appreciate that. My goal for today is to do better than yesterday my friend… and be of service any way I can.