I’m having the hardest time trying to sleep tonight. Spiral thoughts. I got a DUI on my daughters birthday and have probation orientation tomorrow. Everything is going really well. I have flashbacks of jail, worries that my son and daughter will someday hate me for my struggle with alcohol and for divorcing their abusive dad. We have a good bond and I’ve been open about everything with them in hopes their lives turn out better. I just wish I could turn off my brain
Hi Rebecca,
Sorry you can't sleep well. Good luck with the court matter. Being open and honest is the way to go!
Pray and give your worries over to God. I know it sounds easy to do, but you can. God will continue to comfort you.
Take one day at a time, as you've heard. Thinking about the future causes anxiety, and thinking about the past causes distress. This is something that you have to train yourself to do. I did.
Be patient with yourself. All the best to you!
If anything your children are gonna love you even more for quitting. Kids are pretty smart about their parents. You’re fine. Keep on that sober path and stay in the day. Try not to project. The what ifs will drive you nutz.
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Those self defeating thoughts will fade with time and working the steps if you are in AA. I had the same thoughts. What do and will my kids think of me, how do I prove to my wife I truly am sorry, how do I fix all the wreckage I have caused in my life… my sponsor told me day one “ don’t try to fix everything in a day, don’t beat yourself up” and he was right. A year later I have a great relationship with my family again. Just keep doing the next right thing and those that matter to you will see it. Keep your head up, we got you!
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