I’m just tired man. Tired of being alone. Tired of feeling trapped with no escape in sight. Having an issue like agoraphobia is so f’n restrictive on my life. I go no where. I see no one. Haven’t worked in quite a while. Haven’t traveled in YEARS. I work on this stuff constantly and it feels like I’m stuck. 8 years without alcohol and i should’ve been better off at this point. Still crashing at my brothers which I’m absolutely grateful for. But I’m gonna be 42 on Friday and I’m almost worse off now than when i was out there living like a lunatic. And i get the whole “it’ll get better when the times right” nonsense but this is 8 years! of working my tail off in every aspect only to be left with less than i had before. Patience is running very thin. Just had to vent. Thanks. 
I can only imagine your frustration. I know you see a therapist but are you on any medication for the agoraphobia?
Yea i take something for it. There’s really no medicinal treatments specifically for it. It’s kind of a trial by error thing. I recently went up and it helps but that’s about it. I do the therapy. I’ve done the exposure. I’ve read the books. Watched the videos. I’m just stuck with this. It’ll never fully go away apparently. It’s also not studied enough. I’ve spoken to numerous doctors that don’t have really any answers except keep working on it. Which is fine. I do. It’s just so dam frustrating sometimes. Like it’s beautiful out right now. I wanna go somewhere, meet some people, do something fun but this nonsense holds me back. It’s a living nightmare.
I know about the trial and error. I have issues with anxiety and have tried many meds and different doses.It gets tiring and some of the stuff has side effects that make you feel worse than you already did. Sorry man.
I have ocd and agoraphobia, among mental health other issues. I don’t have sober time under my belt, like you do, but I feel your struggle.
Making it through 8 years of that struggle, sober, is mind blowing to me. That alone speaks to how strong you are. I hope you can see that and find a way to apply that same level of bravery to overcoming everything fear has taken from you. 
Tysm. And i hope you can find a way thru with all of your struggles as well. The agoraphobia was, for me, a level of insanity when i was drinking. It’s become more manageable since I’ve quit, just not to the point of leading a normal life yet unfortunately. Praying i get there sooner than later and the same for you.
Thank you.
Was your agoraphobia always more manageable while sober? I feel like it’s easier for me to handle responsibilities that require me to leave my “bubble”/navigate social interactions/be present in the moment if I’m not completely sober, but relying on a chemical buffer makes me feel like a little b*tch, and that bothers me on a level I don’t even have words for. 
I’m still working on mine thru therapy. It’s always been debilitating unfortunately but when i drank it almost didn’t exist. The hangovers made it a million times worse and without anything it’s still a pain in the rear, just not psychosis levels thankfully.
I feel that. Your ability to stay sober through that struggle is inspiring.
Thank you