I’m really struggling
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Good on you for reaching for a sobriety app- that’s a very helpful inclination! What aspect are you struggling with?
If it helps at all, I’ve found that going back to the feeling of why you wanted to get sober to begin with is helpful.
Keep at it- you got this 
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I believe in you! You can get through anything and everything sober.
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Have you ever been to meetings? I can recommend a few good ones in your area
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Meetings are ok. I find my anxiety gets me at them.
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It’s such an up and down. I’ve done years without alcohol but when I go back it’s always just as bad.
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I recommend meetings. And even if you don’t say anything.. you’ll hear something that stays with you.
My first meeting I heard a guy say “if you’re looking for religion, you’re looking for spirituality then you’re looking for a place out of he**.”
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I understand. I didn’t take to them too well either. If you’re interested, there’s a meeting outside under a pavilion at an equestrian park. I found myself more comfortable there then ever before…besides the 100 degree heat lately lol
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To add to the mental exercise Kate spoke of....I like to go through the motions of what will likely happen after first use /drink. Personally, mine is followed by 4-5 more drinks, inhibition gone, find whatever additional drug that's available (usually cocaine), 4-5 more drinks, blackout option #1, offend some people, 3-4 more drinks, doing something regrettable, blackout option #2 , pass out, hangover, apology tour.
I hope yours isn't as bad but I'm sure it isn't good. Just go through what will inevitably happen after that first use /drink and it should help you refrain from starting the cycle.
Stay strong and good luck.
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Hello Kitty I can understand you, I have been there before and trust what we are saying meetings do help a lot okay. I sent you a friend request we can talk personally alright I believe in and I know you can do this alright, you can get take control of your life again that I know for sure alright.
Sounds about right to me, Derek!
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Proud of you!
Derek is spot on. I had a guy tell me once at a meeting, when you think of drinking again, think of the bad times, because that’s all it was at the end. I stopped drinking many times, I just couldn’t stop starting again. The only solution was AA for me (just speaking for myself), after a while my anxiety passed because I realized no one in those meetings thought about me as much as I did. I shared honestly and that’s all that mattered. If I didn’t feel like sharing, I passed and no one cared either way. Our egos make us think we are the center of the universe, what started happening was what I shared helped others in those meetings and that is what this is all about. Then I learned there are hundreds of forms of fear we suffer from (anxiety and disbelief being two of my big ones) and that selfishness and self centeredness is the root of our problems. I humbled myself to ask another man to be my sponsor and I worked the steps to the best of my ability and developed a spiritual relationship with a higher power of my choice. 5 years later, I still go to a meeting everyday, I help other alcoholics/addicts, as well as other people and the urge to drink has left. I still don’t know how, but it did. We all struggle, I still struggle with life because I have to face it now, I can’t get numb. There is a solution, most of us don’t want to do it because we think it’s too difficult or we fear sharing what we did when active in our disease. You don’t have to do it alone and there is power in that. What you shared helped me today, so thank you and I’m praying for you.
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struggling is part of recovery. Go to meetings call someone. Don’t give up.
Everything that everyone said here is perfect. We alcoholics can’t have one drink it is totally will lead to several. For me my last relapse started with one sip of my husbands beer within day I was at a restaurant by myself drinking martinis. See my relapse was totally in secret. I drank secretly in my room for 7 months. Please don’t pick up. Keep reaching out to us here and go to meetings try to meet more people in sobriety. I have 34 months and I still struggle with the fact that I can’t drink like a “normal” person. I haven’t seen family in 34 months because of the amount of alcohol involved in every function. I do what I need to do. Stay strong. 
Kitty, I feel for you! I struggled and relapsed many times for many years. What worked for me? I went to live meetings everyday 7am and every night for 5 years. I got sponsors, did the steps, gave my number to sober addicts, texted and called sober addicts everyday.
I didn’t give myself time to struggle, I just did everything in the program. I RE-programmed my brain and my life. 14+ years of sobriety now. I rarely go to meetings but I’m always in service! You can do it too. If you really want to be free of the slavery and addiction.
I’m here if you want to talk. Dan
Struggling with what if I might ask?
Hi Kitty. There’s a great women’s meeting tonight not too far from you (see below). A lot of the ladies that go to the equestrian park meeting I mentioned in my post above attend this meeting. Hope you can check it out🙏
Hello everyone… for all the ladies may I remind you that today and every Tuesday we have a women’s
meeting 6:30pm at Shenandoah park by the firestation
14452 Shenandoah parkway
Davie 33325
As you enter the park always keep your left going all the way to the end until you find the firestation and is the building infront of tennis and basquetball courts
Get a sponser
Read the book
Do the steps
It will get better